High Thoughts

I've been thinking a lot about what is it that makes me want to loosen up doing things that those kids I consider to be super cool are doing.

Weed, alcohol, cigarettes...

I don't have a moment in life where I find comfort in being me. I always have to be doing something. I gotta be writing down my thoughts to try to make sense out of life. A lot of things are happening right now and I am not sure I am living capably. I have a lot in my plate right now, and for some reason, even though my life is entirely depending upon those things that I have in my plate, I cannot fathom a way out of those things that I do that make me do bad things to me and to others.

I thought about losing it all today, after I watched a video about some tarot readings. Anyway, at the same time I feel as if I have to learn how to be more myself, and the reason why I am going through so many hardships is because the lesson I had to learn on my own was not only about doing things right, but living and loving life.

I am thankful. For everything. I love my life.