Diaries: for those days when I don't want to do a thing

I've been feeling pretty stagnant lately, as if I felt something bad was going to happen. However, and given the circumstances, I now think that I am prone to believe that bad things are about to happen because I feel comfortable in chaos. I don't really know stability, and causing chaos and a mess is definitely something I am eager to do, feel, live in.

I don't want to work right now, it's three in the morning, but I've been putting off this assignment for a while now and I am terribly scared of what could happen if I don't complete it.

The wonders of doing things wrong. What could possibly be worse than this. Losing my job, something that I love doing.